The truTh...

i've learned...sometimes telling the truth is so hard..hiding something from someone u love is really hard...

but not telling them makes things worst..it hurts them more...

at times..i thought just keeping certain things to myself would be better so i won't hurt someone...

but i've realised..it hurts them more that we don't tell them but they found out some where else

so..my advise...do not hide anything from the person u love...

the truth hurts..but it hurts even more to find out frm someone else...

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My LUrVE~!!!!:))))

Welll..I never knew love can be found so fast..maybe not alll the time..

ta daa..finally..mabel has a boyfriend..and i really do love him...

i didn't know how much i loved him till i knew i couldn't be a day apart from him...

This cutie here is totally not in the lst of guys i was looking for..

1.he is short

2.he's not malaysian(i wanted a european boyfriend..)haha

3..at times we couldn't understand wat d other person was talking.

3.he's no rich guy

4.we'ree gonna be far apart soon..

bbut..that's what makes him special..his my shorty..:))

how on earth i fell for him??

well..for i know..being with him i felt like a child again..i felt free..and in comfort..

whenever i had problems..having him by myside made all the problems go away..

we didn't need money to be happy..we spent most of our times togtehr talking and just being in each others arms..i can say..70% of ur times spent together was just at the beach..we hadn't much places to go..

we barely go out on dates to movies or expensive dinners..but i'm satisfied just being simple like this..

there's more to come:)

LOve...Mi sayang pi...:)

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love makes us grow

welll..it's been quite sometime now..

i'm now gone through near to 3 months of training over here in melaka and so much has happened..

i never knew i could learn so much about love right here...

1.love cannot be forced..welll..i tried ..but it turned out terrible...

2.love is assurance...because i thought i like dat someone...know i lost our relationship..

3.love must be said out...if one only shows action but never express in words..ur so gonna loose that person..

4.Love sees no defect or weakness...well..whatever that was once a problem to me.seem just a small prob when love blinds it all...

it's reallly hard when u gotta sacrifice friends..and i mean real good friends to gain that love..

well...i've lost 1 fren...he cared for me so sososomuch...whenever i was sick..he would giv me all kinds of medicine..he would be the one asking how is my hand..(i've got allergy)..he would make sure i eat..

and we would go out together all the time..but the moment i told him i had a bf...all those caring stop..he doesn't even talk much to me anymore..it's really sad..

btu well..when love comes..sacrifices comes also right..

some might have lost love infornt of them..but it doesn't mean we have to give up right..i believe everyone has a chance to be forver loved..so never give up k..

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LOve Or Dumb??

SOmetimes Love is Just Plain Stupid..
U've Done So Much for No Results..
Wasted so Much Time..So Much Effort Only to Have Results in Dreams..
Each Time he Walks Pass u,U Think he'll COme to u..
But DissapoIntment Hits you When He Walks Pass You Not Even Looking At You..
And Your Sitting There SMiling Like an idiot
All Effort Was giVen but Not even a Smile in Return..
Am i Plain Dumb/Naive or Is This Called Love??

EaCh day i Am filled With hope When i see HIm...BUt Reality Stucks wHen He starts Talking BOut His Baby..When he Starts Telling Me..How Hot that Chick Over The Table is..
Well..aLL i Want now is For him TO know That i'm Always here FOr HIm..

Mabel...You've Just Hit a Lamp Post...You've Struck Dumb..Haiz...

WEll...Like They ALways Say..

THis is Life..

PeaCe yo..

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My Bad Boy..

Hey YOu...if Only u Knew how Much i Liked you...
And it Is a Simple Mistake...Well..i Don't Care..

I Don't CaRe if the World thinks that u are a Bad Boy..BecAuse i Know U're Not...
I Don't Care if u Had Studs And Tattoo All Over...EvenThough it Was ONe Of The Things I AnTI
I DOn't Care if You Smoke..As Long As Not When u're With Me..
I DOn't Care If i Could Not Have 100% Of ur Love...Even 30% is More Than Enough..
I Don't Care if U Had Another Gurl In Ur Heart...I Know i CanNot ComPare MySelf tO her..
I Don't Care if U Had Some Other Gurls OutSide...As Long as u'd Let Me Know And That u'll Still Love Me And Came Back To Me When Ur Done Playing With her..
i Don't Care if Ur Are Not Even Close To The Qualities i FInd in a Guy.,...Ur Perfect Enough FOr Me..

I Care That ur ALways the Best in My Eyes..
I Care That When Ur dOwn...Cos i DOn't Wanna see u Sad..
I Care That u Don't Tell Me What's Going On..Because I'm WOrried AbOut u..

This is How Much i Like yOu...DOn't YOu Know...Having a Lil Of ur Attention and Love is More Than i Can Ask..i've aLways been a Person Full Of Jealousy...But Wanting U Has Made me Fight Back Jealousy as i Know i Can Never Have u Fully..I Am Nothing Compared THose u gO After And THe Her u that u Miss...But Having a Lil of Ur Heart And A Lil MemoRies in Ur Life is More Than Enough...No Matter How MAny Other Gurls u'd Have Outside..i Won't Mind..As Long as At The End Of The Day..u Know u'll Still Have Me And u'd Come Back to Me...


Falling For a Bad BOy...Well...Is it Sacrifice or Pure Dumbness??

PeaCe...

Life Goes on..

Well...Well..haiz..It has been long since i've last updated...
Time FLies fast...i've Got only one more month till i leave for practical training and then college ends...
Well..This half Year...So much happened...To cut stories short..Life had its bads and worst..well there were good times too..
And yeah..1 of it was getting into philipd healthy cooking semi's...
Pm Module is still on and its getting worst...things are so so messy...well..this is life..hahahah
i wanna finish it fast..but the faster it finishes means the shorter time i have left with my buddies here...huhu

Well..FifA started...and it started bad..with 8 matches and 3 were drawn matches...well..at least argentina won~!! yeah.. :)

Things are going on..but i found out..i didn't have a direction..i am at lost now..i don't know what to do..what i wanna do or what i want...

haiz...life life...GOd..show me a direction pLease...

p.s...So Broke now...haiz...No Income No Nothing...

PeaCe yo

HopeLess..

i Given So Much Effort...more Than Them..But..Why Why u Guys Treat Me Like This...am i not Important..i Miss u Guys Lots...

i Don't wAnna Be there For You..But To Be With u guys..PleaSe...

:(..

PeaCe..

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My Fight For the Lord~!

Recently i have been backsliding from God..and i mean allot...

Although not very serious thing such as someone died or what but i am facing problems emotionally..well/...everything i do don't seem to get their way..it seems that i am a total failure..dance and cooking...i am no good in either..i even suck as being a fren..well...that's what i noe..

haiz...i'm not trying to gain anyones attention here but well./..i really dunno who to go to..

things are hard when there is no one to support u or even listen to u...at start..i thought maybe the Lord is the only one..yeah..it's really true..but i was greedy..i wanted more..i wanted humanly attention..therefore..i sulk and kept everything in hope that i'll find someone to pour out to..i talked to the Lord lesser and lesser and i was taking my own lead..chosing others over going to church..i made my own way..

and things just got much more miserable..

than after a long fight alone...well..i went to church yesterday..like normal..than..for the first time in many many many months,,,i answered the altar call..i didn't know why...but..i feel..welli wanted to see whether the Lord really would talk to me..and..HE DID~!!!!!

Aunty Jenny prayed for me...i dunno how she knew i was in a state of self disppointment..

The Lord have definitly told her..or spoke to me through her..

He said to me..all those weakness i felt that have brough me down..things that i felt i was useless and made myself witdrawn from amny people and kept to myself..all these thoughts was made by the devil..the Devil made me felt weak and hopeless..making me loose all self confidence.

AND SO..The Lord told me..never to believe all those things..He is always with meand he will support me in all ways..i believe..the Lord will bring me up..no matter how weak i am..in Him..i am strong~!..i really pray that i would find out what He wants me to do..and walk in His ways..or maybe i have already known but have not seen the importance in it..

Well,from this day on..i will fight the fight..with the support and the guidance of the Lord,My Father,My God..I KNOW hE WIll be there for me..therefore i will not feel alone and afraid..

he will reach out His hand to Hold on to me when i fall..same goes to everyone,...he has always been mergiful and graceful to me..although over and over again i went against Him..he never failed to bless me...Thank You Lord and do forgive me for all that i have done against You,

FOr the Lord is my Strength

Peace..
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My LimItatIons..

Well...Have U Ever felt That u Noe U WOuld Not be able to go any further..where u felt like giving up?
well..to tell u the truth...i have always have the filling to give up on myself..especially in the life of dance...since a long long time ago..i have ad set my mind that i would never be a full time dance...meaning take dance as a way to earn a living..well..to me...love and passion and hard core training is not enough..i must all come together with talent..well..that's one thing i lack...that's the one thing that have pulled me down...i never had the talent to dance...welll...maybe it is hard to explain..but well...its art..anything to do with art has to go with talent...right..
well..but i never gave up on dance..y????because i love it too much...i had shed tears for it,had bruise and bumps for it,.even broke my heart for it...i've been through too much...but...it all will come to an end one day..and i can feel that it is soon..well..to me.i have not much time left for the dance scene and i wanna make it my best...but..things just don;t seem to work my way..i've realised how bad i was..i couldn't even do a simple handstand off the wall without falling with a "THUMP"..after so many years..my skills are now all gone..and i don't have any style...seeing the rest just make me hate me,dance and sometimes them...haiz...how can this be...i feel so useless and i feel that i'm wasting everybody's time.come on..i still remember...once someone told me when i was around 16yrs old..Mabel can do chair freeze now,but 10 years later..she still can only do chairfreeze..well..i think...i'm unhelpable..and that words will really come true..haiz...

if u guys r reading...i really wanna aplogize to all who had wasted your time on me..i really thank you guys for the guidance and ur patience on me..
i;m so sorry that i have dissapointed u guys...
i now..you all had dreams of going far in this scene and because of me...u guys couldn;t go any further...it's also an embarassment to show what i have..after telling the amount of years u have been dancing..i'm a complete noob..but i'm really sorry...i really don't wish to give up now...well...till time allows...i really wanna continue dancing..but if i'm really a barrier for u guys to go forward..do tell me ok...i'm so sorry!!!!!

PasSion,Love,Hard Work And taLent Have to GO TOgether TO Make THings WOrk!!!!!

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